Rat Race

In every big city in the world there is the overwhelming competitive nature to try to out do one another. Drones, a term used to describe people carrying out their civic duties on a daily basis without a conscience to change their abilities, skills, or routines but just drift aimlessly through life. I guess a person who relies on the labor of others but in other words just doesn't think about life for oneself but relies entirely on a meaningless job...now that could sadly be me. ....  In our modern world people believe more is better, the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence well there is too sides to every coin. Now that introduced in samplers let me get down to the meat and gristle of the matter.


I'm embroiled in a capitalistic scheme here in Busan where everywhere I go I hear money talk a big rush to get more money and that everyone else has it better than the next etc etc. Well I think this society has disillusioned itself to believing that money is the savior of all things horribly wrong. Money will always be first. Its become embodied as a natural resource encompassing family planning, vacations etc. Pastimes are a thing of the past unless you count sleeping in English class as a hobby. A parents money at work... a child who is 14 is sleeping in my class apparently not able to withstand the pressures that she deals with each day. poor little lass my heart is just bleeding for her my teenage years were a blast compared to this drama princess... anyways.

I feel sorry for the blind ignorant parents who think that they are actually helping their poor excuse as a child. Frankly, and I know this sounds bad but English Education is like child labor. They don't want to do it but they are forced to recite the ABCs because the business world says so. Well no wonder most of them grow up and can't speak English very well. (that's also because they think to learn English in a Korean way is the right way...uh). Well forget about those poor little boys and girls who aren't doing much more than following the whims of their parents... This post is about me.....


Me.... I want to change my life. I want to pick up my life where I left it. I want to tackle dreams that are bigger than myself. I want to make a difference in someones life and have people love my work that I do whether its teaching someone how to speak English, teach someone cultural behaviors, or simply open a door for someone literally and figuratively. I want to look at every Korean director in the face and say you're pathetic since you need to count your student body like a stupid University Enrollment figure simply to forecast HOW much money you have. Is that all that's important?

I have lost my persona in this rat tunnel just for the elusive dollar. I have seen friends succumb  to greed and the ever so want for more money transgress on the people's mind where ever I go. I personally have tracked my margins + and -  and kept a budget, cut unneeded expenses, splurged lived like a God for a week, a hobo the next and I have done this 1. to consolidate for losses 2. To see what its was like and 3. to have fun and live a little.

I started a red box  with my blue won money and counted over 100 WHY? to show how unnecessary saving money could be. Its my pocket money right?

The truth be told is that the more I make the more I spend and the more I spend on unnecessary things the more I regret later. I have this notion in my mind that I need to save a lot for some unknown future especially since I am married. SO my questions to you I pose 2

1. What is it that we save for in this big unknown future that makes living for today a hard concept to follow? Why save?

2. Why do we push ourselves to work harder when we know that work or money isn't making us happy?

I think that Appreciation and Respect for Who we are, are important components towards a person in order for them to be truly happy. It doesn't matter what the job is so much that the person's labors are heard in some form.

The janitor who cleaned the ballroom can feel satisfied that many people are enjoying a nice party behind clean doors.

A teacher can feel happy if the students are interested eager and wanting to learn. This doesn't happen here. I hear foreigners who make their kids laugh because they just goof off the whole time but that's not my style. I have been punished for actually giving a damn where is the logic in this notion.....


Some rat race I am getting carpal tunnel...



Cheers!