3 years ago I graduated from my University. I was on top of the world. I proved many people wrong and showed everyone I could get a flimsy piece of paper and make my way into the workforce. At this time I had to say goodbye to all of my friends and I also thought of past promises I had made. I told many people I would go to their countries.
With no real legitimate work plans, no girlfriend and no money I set aside my way of life to try a new one in Korea. In retrospect I wish I had never came here this country is so confusing even for the inhabitants. But thats them this is me.
I got married. I played the dating game perfectly. I gave her plenty of time and we made the right choices together. We didn't marry right away, we waited 2 years and then some. I regret that she didn't meet my family first, hadn't tried living in America at all or give in to my wedding wishes a little but that's Love too right?
I don't agree with her entirely but I do think that Love binds and causes us to accept more easily.
my situation is grim to me. I hate my job situation because I am never good enough. I am called at weird times. Before I had quit this company job they successfully ruined a lunch, a dinner, a saturday and my vacation time. Why would I ever willingly want to live here?
Well once again out of Love- I am staying here until December of 2011 and it can't come fast enough.
I have failed to show my wife what great things there are in America but she will wake up someday.
I value my freedom, my unalienable rights to life liberty and THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS. That one is the big one for me you can't spell happy and have Korea apart of that. The condescending attitudes, the money talks, the lack of privacy, the close mindedness and for me i am supposed to grin and bare it. I can't complain.
For 3 years I have endured, I have tried hard to conquer my problems. I was told to leave 2 times. I don't think thats a solution. In my marriage I think I am doing everything right. I followed her wishes and got this house that I am living in. I work hard and provide as much as I can. I am lazy when it comes to domestic duties. I don't cook much, clean enough etc. but I do my best to provide a loving atmosphere.
I want a few things: 1/ children to be American citizens. 2. To live in America 3. to follow the true American dream which is to find my calling on my time.
Is that so hard to ask for?
Well if it becomes a problem I may have to change my lifestyle. Love is powerful strong and everything good but there are unfortunately boundaries to Love. I can't change my wishes, and aspirations and I can't give up everything. Can she give up everything? '
Is it fair to ask her like that? There was a time when everyone thought being an American was the greatest now maybe not due to recent events however if she doesn't like it she could always go back... I just know that no matter what I am done with Korea at some point.
There is no fixing Korea. Selfishness, Stupidity, Greed and arrogance are rampant and they are nothing that I want to be apart of.
Lets do a quick review
1. I had a fortune teller pick my wedding date.
2. I had a lengthy picture day for our albums, etc.
3, I got married in Gumi the worst place on Earth for me
4. I settled in this house for maybe 2 years.
5. I worked 6 days a week until I just quit my job which is effectively starting Wednesday
6. I worked as hard as possible at YBM but they told me too find a new job.
Anyways enough complaints for now hope you liked the posting
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Maybe next time you take your wife to America, you should take her somewhere else besides MT so she can get a glimpse of what it's like in places w/ more Asians. Maybe the Seattle area--Lynwood, WA has a ton of Koreans. Or take her to San Francisco, even Chicago....If you can't sell her on Montana, perhaps another area of the US may be better. Certainly better than Korea, right?
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear you have had such bad luck in Korea. You say it is the culture, but I certainly hope not. I am new to Busan, and have landed upon your blog by doing a google search for Yeonsan--I got one of your blogs with a subway map.
ReplyDeleteI am curious as to why you once wanted to leave america and start anew? In retrospect would you say you had false hopes for Korea?